What if nowhere wants me? What if no one ever wants me? Why do I feel unloved? Why do I feel I am only good for a flirty text and the proposition of a shag? Why did I sleep with him? Why have I kissed so many people? Why have I made so many mistakes? Why did I apply to Oxford and Durham and…
What if I never have a normal relationship? Will I ever feel at ease with one? Why am I so adverse to love? In fact, why does the prospect of romance repulse me? Why did you hit me so hard? Why do my studies come above everything else in my life? Why do I care so much about my weight? Why do I not care about people’s feelings? Am I manipulative? Am I lonely? Who granted me the best friends in the world? Why do I love peaches so much?
